I recently went for an operation, but before I fell asleep (the bastards injected my neck) I began reflecting on my life so far, and making peace with my maker. I had been quite content with the path I was leading, but now I am not so sure.

I noticed that not only do I have nobody to share my life with, but also that I have never actually connected with anybody in that way. Not only this, but I have absolutely no idea about going around meeting people in that way.

I have also become rather doubting of my career choice (which I had previously enjoyed thoroughly). I cannot understand why I enjoyed being shouted at, being shot at, being treated like shite and, dare I say it, taking lives.

I am currently very unhappy and I have no idea what to do. Somebody give me a hint eh?

The only thing I can say, besides you've made a good start so far in figuring out that you've been uncontent ( if that is even a proper word these days?) and the next step would be to go out and find what will make you happy and give you a sense of peace again.... This coming from someone who has no clue about herself or what even makes her happy either lol, I've decided to look at my priorities personally and decided to stop being peoples' bitch, of course with the exception of an occasional on my terms and my terms only lol and decided to take my cousin's advice and go back to school. She once told me that she was disappointed me because I was the good girl smart one in tha family and here I was a college drop out and she was going back to get herself straightened out. It made me think of what I needed to do for myself so yeah. Thats all I can really say is to go out and see/find what makes you happy again and see if that helps any.