dreaming(day/night), movie watching, thinking, snuggling!, munching on delicious fooods, drinking yummy beverages, drawing(weapon of choice: pencil; auxiliary artillery: photoshop cs(wacom tablet), water color, oil paint) reading( usually text like new age books, mythology, religion( wicca ), but on the off-chance a novel actually interests me i like to read fantasy, i read manga but i read silly manga(wallflower), or mystery such as godchild series, or gothic themed mangas...but the story has to be good, comics too: gloom cookie is cuute, have Death: At Death's door drawn by jill thompson(story by her too but character's by neil gaiman) , mags: french vogue, vogue, seventeen

disney!, black moon( some french movie), loser, shallow hal, silent hill, shutter, underworld& evolution, queen of the damned was cuute , hellboy 2, lord of the rings series, pirates of the carribean dead man's chest(poor dear davey </3), tim burton classics, brideshead revisited was a certainly good movie but it frightens me slightly,

33 snowfish, some of pendragon, Then He Ate My Boy Entrancers: More Mad, Marvy Confessions of Georgia Nicolson, Dealing/Searching/Calling with/for/on Dragons, A book of dead days,
manga: Godchild serires, Cain Saga, Kuroshitsuji(Black Butler), oboron, alichino, tarot cafe,

sexual:light bondage(on moi), vulnerability( especially vulnerable men as pictured in yaoi or becoming vulnerable myself) , being around large and dominant persons(especially women...although i am most certainly not lesbian...i support lesbians and gay men but i probably will never be lesbian) or simply seeing them if im in the mood ,

non-sexual: passiveness, soft spoken-ness, calm or gentle demeanor, beautiful (deep piscean) eyes and facial structure, a combination between manly handsome-ness and beauty (and) grace, (if this were heaven,medium-to-long hair and black hair too ^^ but im not too picky) kind and caring demeanor, good manners, politeness, pale to light skin, uniqueness(obscurity)
ending statement: be pisces! ^^

loud voices, overly manly physique and face, ugly noses, amorphous or round facial structures( non-manly facial structures but not too manly), blatant crude sexual appetite or eroticism, HAIR! (hairiness) , wearing distasteful or improper attire for specific occasions, loud, rude beast-like behavior, impudence, girly or unattractive voice, please be lean/slender not fat, pudgy, fluffy, "healthy" etc. , being over- controlling, to put it simply don't be a Leo(half-kidding)

i think im too emotional... i.... well its not really a bad thing its just i feel too deeply and those who do not appreciate my feelings get pissed off really quickly, i want to be able to comfortable say that "I will willingly suffer for you out of love if u ever die" to someone and to have that person understand and not freak out, get mad, run away, ignore it, ....
i enjoy suffering for the ones i love, but it hurts when they dont like it...like no one who would love me would want me to suffer but they would appreciate it...
i would spell your name in blood and wait for u to find it and you would pause... in shock , but come back and say... "aww... thats so nice and sweet of you but .. but give me the razor... and i'll call the hospital ^^;; .... but dont do it again because if u die ill kill u because i loev u " and huggle me ^^ and i would get a little blood on your clothes but you would try not to clean it so that you could remember the time i almost died on valentines day just to show u how much i care ^^
hahahha every holiday we would need to make a visit to the hospital ^^

i care too much about everyone...
so usually when im in the mall i freak out often because i get in people's way so much

when i see new students at school sitting all alone... i ache in my chest because i feel so sad for them until i eventually muster up the courage to be their friend...

always make an effort to say please and thank-you

and i love doing things for others, and making people feel appreciated

it makes me very sad when i see people picking of others whether they be goths, emo's or other types of people.... i cannot stand unnecessary animosity...

i can be very negative to myself sometimes too
but if you will be there for me ... maybe i wont hurt myself anymore ^^ but i'm trying not to be negative to myself

i sometimes feel like everyone's mama because i always worry about friends and... family... everyone! whenever my friends are sick i try to tell them about remedies and aids that can help their symptoms
i constantly look when i hear a child crying .. im silly

very very silly ^^

dont worry im not all sap and sorrow

i have a healthy amount of rage and anger as well as sarcasm and wit or fun and happiness