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My Name is Andrew, my nickname is Lip
I'm Bi
I'm Satanic
I'm a Depressed kid, so I do get depressed easily. And just so it's not a suprise to anyone, I'm bi. Don't be a deuche about it, don't let it bother you. Nothing more nothing less. I have a lot of baggage to carry with me, bad past, many scars, many thoughts of suicide, many unnecesary feelings. February 14th 2002, I tried to get my girlfriend to stop hurting herself, and she took her kitchen knife and stabbed my forehead with it. I'm big on grammer and spelling, it's one of my few quirks that people hate.I talk a lot if I get on a subject I like. I have many problems, I'm fucked up, I have chronic depression, and I'm bipolar. I have had 2 tumors in my leg and hand and I'm asthmatic. I like blood...yeaaaahhhh
I'm A HUGE FUCKING KORN AND MANSON FAN...as if you couldn't tell. And Smashing Pumpkins are the MOST AMAZING BAND EVER. Wish I had some pics on the background of this profile of them. I LOVE EVERY KORN AND MANSON SONG EVER. MY FAVORITES WITHOUT A DOUBT!!!I'm big on music, I have my own band called LEGION, named after the demon in the bible who posessed things and made them hurt/kill themselves, he posessed a bunch of pigs and ran em off a cliff when speaking to Jesus (So the bible says)
My music taste is basically a little rap (but that's slowly diminishing), a lot of metal, nu-metal, screamo, emo, punk, rock, accoustic, elektronica, techno, industrial, and classical...big jump there but that's me.
I am a bit shallow, but don't hate me for it, I can't really help it. I am very nice to my friends, I give em things, and spend money on em. I don't expect much in return, maybe a cigarette here and there. I feel my friends are my family, more so than my family. I will take a bullet for each and every one of those motherfuckers, I think they are awesome. Snoopy, Perky, Gluu, Tiny, Griggs, Jennie, Katie, Emily, Carlson, Ivy, Jill, Limpy, Dom. Those a few of my close friends, the people I consider family.
My epiphony on love and life. It's great you really should read and think about it. It could help.
You like someone, everyone does. And everyone likes or has liked someone they couldn't really have or thought they couldn't have. Someone they are too nervous to ask out.
You gotta fight, don't let it tear you down. Think of it this way...You only live once. let loose have fun. Run around and go crazy if that's what you want. Try different things. Or sit in a corner whenever life has you down and wait for the pain to leave, never take a chance to nudge things to go your way, and always wonder what things would be like if you took that ballsy chance. It may seem embarassing, but deep down inside those who laugh at you know that you made a gutsy move, that you aren't afraid to live it to the fullest.
Those who laugh, never made that choice to take a chance, they are cowards and feel the same as you.
I live my life in a corner, asking myself that question of WHAT IF, don't be like me. You have more of a choice, take it. Live it. You'll feel so much lighter. The only questin you could ever have left is
"What would the pain be like if I never made that move? Would I die, Would I feel it everyday?" That's a much better question to ask.
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